delayed gratification

Something I couldn’t admit to myself for the longest time was my binge eating issue. I still sometimes get into a stressful situation and my instinct is to still over indulge. Delayed gratification helped me with keeping balance with problematic food.

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I don’t have to love my body, I have to love MYSELF

I always feel like I’m waiting for this magic moment when all the stars align. I want ‘perfect’ balance in my life and thrive – this is what I tell myself and it’s a problem because I feel that ‘fact’ will make me happy. I will automatically love myself. Everything that I am, flaws included. That is such a jaded way to think, a little immature.

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i did a thing …

When I was asked to be interviewed for the Half Size Me Podcast I had many reservations. What could I possibly have to share? Will anyone care? I’m not at my goal weight, should I turn it down? Of course those are legitimate concerns but I knew the right answer was to just go for it. Continue Reading

my NSV’s so far

I’m honestly the #1 critic of myself, always saying things I would never tell a friend. Any success I’ve had so far is really stifling because is it really good enough? I always feel like if I’m not doing something at 100% then it’s a fail. I know in reality it isn’t but I’ve just been conditioned this way. In the past few months my weight loss has slowed way down and it makes me pretty nervous. Instead of big drops like 9-14lbs a month its been more like 3-6lbs. In January I even gained 1lbs, it’s so minimal but I can honestly say I’m scared. Is this it? Am I done? Continue Reading

Confidence vs. Tolerance

Confidence is defined as a state of being certain in something that is correct or that a decision of you actions are the best or most effective. I feel that if one is self confidant it means also being arrogant, but that is not so. You or I can be self-confidant and not arrogant. I can willingly admit that I do not know everything and I’m not always correct. Continue Reading

The Ride

I recently fell in love with biking again after a very long break. As a kid/teen I loved getting on my bike and riding around Brooklyn, NY, I’ve honestly been in every corner of Brooklyn because of my bike. After I started gaining weight riding wasn’t as much fun anymore and with time I gave up on it completely. After my hubby’s cousin gave me her bike I’ve made attempts and it was rather fun. Continue Reading