complacent vs. satisfied

I’ve always been a little afraid to be satisfied with my life and myself overall. To me that feeling was earned by being all the things you could possibly be, as well as the title of ‘satisfaction’ being bestowed on you instead of claiming it. In turn I grew complacent and I’ll explain why it’s not a good place to be.

I don’t have to love my body, I have to love MYSELF

I always feel like I’m waiting for this magic moment when all the stars align. I want ‘perfect’ balance in my life and thrive – this is what I tell myself and it’s a problem because I feel that ‘fact’ will make me happy. I will automatically love myself. Everything that I am, flaws included. That is such a jaded way to think, a little immature.

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it’s been a year

It has definitely been a year, a hard one at that. My friends, family and I had several big losses and the grief has been unbearable, almost debilitating. When people go into the new year they have this mantra of ‘new year, new me’. That’s awesome but it has not been my case.

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i did a thing …

When I was asked to be interviewed for the Half Size Me Podcast I had many reservations. What could I possibly have to share? Will anyone care? I’m not at my goal weight, should I turn it down? Of course those are legitimate concerns but I knew the right answer was to just go for it. Continue Reading

emotional eating

First thing that comes up online when you type in emotional eating is

How to Recognize and Stop Emotional and Stress Eating
Emotional eating (or stress eating) is using food to make yourself feel better—eating to satisfy emotional needs, rather than to satisfy physical hunger.

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the easy way out – not so much

Here is a conversation I have pretty much every week since June 27th, 2017

Me: Yes, I’ve had weight loss surgery.

Random Person: Oh wow that’s amazing but isn’t it the easy way out?

Me: No, not it’s not *as every fiber of my being wants to totally yell at the person*

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