the boat or the dock?

Lately I’ve been feeling really down lately, a lot of things are getting to me that I normally let slide. How long can I sit here analyzing the same issues in my relationships? I wonder if I ask too much for myself and at the same time cringing at the fact that I’m not happy settling for ‘the usual’ … being a doormat, feeling lonely, not having my own voice or giving myself the credit I deserve. Continue Reading

my grandma was the best

On the 6th would have been my grandmothers 87th birthday, I felt really sad because I miss her. I even cried which is normal for me and it made me think of all the awesome times we’ve had together. She was an amazing person, loving, caring and a great friend to everyone. Continue Reading

just a kid from Boston …

When I was about 14 or 15 my parents took me to Boston … just to see it. We were traveling somewhere by bus and I saw this one guy. He couldn’t have been that old, maybe first or second year of college but something about him spoke to me. He is out here on his own making it … of course he could have been a hoodlum living in his parents basement but I didn’t see it that way. Continue Reading

keep it together

Back to real life after a fantastic long weekend and I have to say I’m still exhausted. Last night I skipped my support meeting because a friend of mine agreed to go for a walk with me … I have to say I had a great walk workout. I actually did 11,000+ steps for the day which is rare for me and I’m feeling a bit tired today from that. On top of that I have a gym workout today that I kind of want to skip out on but I will not. I made plans with a friend which usually helps out a lot, I can honestly say I am not accountable to myself as I should be but when I have a friend waiting I am more likely to hit the gym even if I don’t want to. Continue Reading

camping

We went camping with my parents for the long weekend and I have to say just getting away made me happy. I needed that break from the everyday to get out and breath fresh air. I have been having a lot of dreams about running and it happened again so Sunday morning I got up at 8am to this view … Continue Reading

one of those days

My day started off early because I had a photo shoot with a new model … and by new I mean totally green. Don’t get me wrong guys for being a newbie in the industry she was excellent, I guess I just put so much of myself to my job that I get drained quickly. Including that my breakfast was not the best (a nutrition bar) and I got so tired early in the day my food choices were not the best for lunch or dinner. Continue Reading