it’s been a year

It has definitely been a year, a hard one at that. My friends, family and I had several big losses and the grief has been unbearable, almost debilitating. When people go into the new year they have this mantra of ‘new year, new me’. That’s awesome but it has not been my case.

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i did a thing …

When I was asked to be interviewed for the Half Size Me Podcast I had many reservations. What could I possibly have to share? Will anyone care? I’m not at my goal weight, should I turn it down? Of course those are legitimate concerns but I knew the right answer was to just go for it. Continue Reading

my NSV’s so far

I’m honestly the #1 critic of myself, always saying things I would never tell a friend. Any success I’ve had so far is really stifling because is it really good enough? I always feel like if I’m not doing something at 100% then it’s a fail. I know in reality it isn’t but I’ve just been conditioned this way. In the past few months my weight loss has slowed way down and it makes me pretty nervous. Instead of big drops like 9-14lbs a month its been more like 3-6lbs. In January I even gained 1lbs, it’s so minimal but I can honestly say I’m scared. Is this it? Am I done? Continue Reading

the easy way out – not so much

Here is a conversation I have pretty much every week since June 27th, 2017

Me: Yes, I’ve had weight loss surgery.

Random Person: Oh wow that’s amazing but isn’t it the easy way out?

Me: No, not it’s not *as every fiber of my being wants to totally yell at the person*

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Confidence vs. Tolerance

Confidence is defined as a state of being certain in something that is correct or that a decision of you actions are the best or most effective. I feel that if one is self confidant it means also being arrogant, but that is not so. You or I can be self-confidant and not arrogant. I can willingly admit that I do not know everything and I’m not always correct. Continue Reading

RNY and Alcohol

I recently went to a boozy brunch with friends and I have to say the experience of drinking is very different after my RNY surgery. It wasn’t my first alcoholic beverage and I’ve spoken with my surgeon about consumption. Ideally alcohol should be completely eliminated however even my surgeon said its not realistic. Continue Reading