Managing Type 2 Diabetes

I have lived with Type 2 Diabetes for longer than I’m willing to admit. Over the years I have tried all sorts of crap, that’s the only way to put it. I’ve taken several steps in the past few years that makes managing the diabetes easier. I’ve built my arsenal of supporters that include doctors, therapist, nutritionist, online community of support and I would say the most important my FRIENDS! Continue Reading

self judgement

Why must we judge ourselves so harshly? My first thought about judging myself is: would I ever say this to my best friend? The answer is Absolutely NOT! It’s rude, hurtful and mean. Then why do I treat myself this way? Why am I making reasons to not deserve something? It’s hard to answer all of these questions because I’m not “perfect”. I have this idolized image of what and who I want to be, it’s so unrealistic but I strive for it and fall short every time. Continue Reading

hard times are hard

Today I want to talk about something I normally don’t and that is about addictions. To be honest I have my own addictions and it was hell and a half to go through it, it was literally looking into a dark whole and realizing ‘this is not to who I am and not who I want to be, but its my reality’. That scared me so much that I changed, I quit cold turkey and never looked back. I don’t even want to think about that time in my life, like it never happened yet every July 18th I look back and say ‘one more year has gone by’ and I realize how big of a deal it really was, IS! Continue Reading

Celebrating my Success

Celebrating my Success has never come easy for me, on my weight loss journey I always have this big number in the back of my mind. I need to loose 185lbs … I just HAVE to. Any sort of actual success I’ve had with weight loss falls by the waist side because of that gigantic number. Continue Reading

confrontation

I believe we all have friendships of different levels and everyone has a close circle. When there is tension with one person one thing tends to happen, you categorize that person as ‘toxic’ and honestly they truly might be toxic for you but bare with me through this post. Two things must happen at this point … Continue Reading

looking for my path

It is unrealistic that I want way more out of life than what I have? I am grateful for the friends and family I have and how supportive they are but I can’t seem to be anywhere near satisfied about myself. Why is it that I hold myself to an unrealistic standard I wouldn’t expect from anyone else? How am I different from them? Sure I feel like I can be doing better in my life, career, relationships and habits but why do I always feel a little disappointed when I see my life right now. Continue Reading