Tag: ideas

my NSV’s so far

I’m honestly the #1 critic of myself, always saying things I would never tell a friend. Any success I’ve had so far is really stifling because is it really good enough? I always feel like if I’m not doing something at 100% then it’s a fail. I know in reality it isn’t but I’ve just been conditioned this way. In the past few months my weight loss has slowed way down and it makes me pretty nervous. Instead of big drops like 9-14lbs a month its been more like 3-6lbs. In January I even gained 1lbs, it’s so minimal but I can honestly say I’m scared. Is this it? Am I done? Continue Reading

looking for my path

It is unrealistic that I want way more out of life than what I have? I am grateful for the friends and family I have and how supportive they are but I can’t seem to be anywhere near satisfied about myself. Why is it that I hold myself to an unrealistic standard I wouldn’t expect from anyone else? How am I different from them? Sure I feel like I can be doing better in my life, career, relationships and habits but why do I always feel a little disappointed when I see my life right now. Continue Reading

just a kid from Boston …

When I was about 14 or 15 my parents took me to Boston … just to see it. We were traveling somewhere by bus and I saw this one guy. He couldn’t have been that old, maybe first or second year of college but something about him spoke to me. He is out here on his own making it … of course he could have been a hoodlum living in his parents basement but I didn’t see it that way. Continue Reading

my thoughts on fat-shaming

I was browsing Facebook like usual and came across a viral video a while back of a fat girl dancing, my first thought on the video was “wow that girl rocks, I want to do that” but my second thought was “Oh man I’m really fat” … yes her body triggered my own negative self talk as per usual. Continue Reading